News: Food, Sleep, & A Small Rant

These days are long and tiring. The baby is hungry more and more, so a good deal of my time is spent trying to eat right so that the baby will grow strong and healthy. Sleep seems to elude me no matter how tired I get. When I do finally mange to fall asleep, I sleep deeply and have a hard time trying to wake and get up. I believe one of the reasons I can not sleep is simply because I think and worry when I have time alone to myself. I would much rather spend rich, happy days with my beloved. But one can not always have what one wants. Michael works hard and is often tired and sore. I am thankful that he is working so hard to make money to take care of myself and the baby. But he spends money often on himself, which I understand he's earned but makes me feel jealous as well as worry there will be no money for our baby. I am told by him that I am spoiled but he is the one who's spoiled. He spends money on himself as well as gets babied and pampered by me daily. I get very little to no money spent on me nor do I get pampered or babied, I do not see how I am the spoiled one. I still have to do everything for myself, I get no special treatment except that I'm not allowed to lift anything heavy. I would think that I am the Pregnant with his baby one, that I should be at least spoiled and pampered a little. He pampered me for maybe two days than it was all about him again. I grow tired of trying to take care of myself, our baby, him, my parents, dogs, and cats daily. Do I not deserve a day off once in a blue and purple moon? Should I not be allowed to sleep in and not have my parents bitch? Can I not be pampered and spoiled utterly simply because you love me and I'm carrying your only child? Am I asking to much? Yes! But for a change let me be the receiver, instead of always having to be the giver. Unhappyness.